10. My laundry room is so full of junk and clutter, that I can barely see the washer and dryer. And that is not a exaggeration in the least..if you have seen my laundry room. (I am happy to report I used my "labor day" off...to clean and organize..and I found the washer and dryer!)
9. I have been living out of a suitcase traveling for work, more than living out of my closet.
8. My husband and I have literally been at home together at the same time only 5 times in the past 4 months. And that is not an exaggeration in the least.
7. Daily phone calls to my mother are down to about 2 a week since I've been in every time zone but her's, and when I think to call..she's been asleep for hours. Guilt has offically set in over this one.
6. Attended church on Sunday, didn't recognize half the ward. When introducing myself, they have lived here in my neighborhood for 3 months..and I've never seen them before. wow.
5. I have missed so many girlfriend lunches that Im on double secret probation and will have to re-introduce myself next time I see them
4. Woke up and realized it is September, and in my mind it's still April. Seriously have no idea where May-August went? Anyone?
3. I've forgotten how to grocery shop or cook because all I've done is eat on the road..but I've become expert at submitting an expense report, and know that I average $3 for breakfast, $7 for lunch and $12 for dinner. pretty good, eh?
2. I have read SO many trash magazines in airports that I know more about the stars lives and the FUGLY 2011 fall fashions than I care to admit. I can answer anything you want to know according to People, US, ELLE and Vogue. No Jennifer Aniston is not pregnant with twins, Kim Kardashian wants to have a honeymoon baby, and the "horse hoove"(sorry,this is the only description I can think of to describe them)shoes of the season are seriously the ugliest things around. period. And I will not wear them, thank you very much. my apologies if you love them.
1. But the biggest indicator and number one reason that something has to change is the fact that for the first time in 8 years...Natalie's grave has looked like this for a while now.. I simply have not been home to visit, or decorate.
This seriously has brought more sadness and guilt to me..
In 8 years Natalies grave has never been without a flower or a fabulous bow and a visit from me for longer than a week or two at the most.
So tonight..I took the time to add some flowers
and a fabulous bow
And sat and listened to the quiet
Enjoyed the moment to talk to Nat
Smiled at the cute flower I found..and hope stay's put for longer than a day
Then promised her...and myself, that change is coming and I will be around to visit and decorate with fabulous bows and cute flowers, to cook and clean... and I'll know more about my friends lives than the stars lives..I'll be home when Dad is home...
and I'll do it all in my favorite flats.
